Friday, July 29, 2005

Just a little reminder for you. This is what we started with... I still cant believe how wonderful he looks! Posted by Picasa

Here is a different view! Posted by Picasa

I can't wait until the swelling is down and the scabs come off and you will be able to see it better. The lip shape is great! The surgeon also did more nose work this time to shape his nostrils! Posted by Picasa

Here it is! Brock mins. after surgery! I couldn't take my eyes off his face! Posted by Picasa

Brocks midnight supper, the last real meal for two weeks....He was dead asleep but like everyday willing to eat anything in sight! Posted by Picasa

This is Brock at the hospital the day before lip repair...he loves the pagers and screams when it is time to give them back. Posted by Picasa

Brocks new smile.

Brocks surgery was a success. He was first case so thankful he did not have to starve too long. We saw his new smile at 10:00 am. The surgeon, Dr. Stal, tried his hardest to get us back to see him before the swelling had set it. That way we could see what he would like after the swelling went down. Before we went back he said to us "the repair was a 10 on the scale of difficulty. Don't get your hopes up." My heart sank. I don't know what he was talking about....It may have been hard but he looks AMAZING. It is nothing short of a miracle. Dr. Stal is a very gifted surgeon. Brocks whole face looks different. His big blue eyes look even bigger! It has made him look a little older too.

The recovery has been rough. The first 24 hours was extremely hard on all of us. It is so hard to watch your baby come out of a comatosed state and be in so much pain. I think what makes it even worse is that he is now old enough to get MAD! And boy was he ever angry. He would go from me to Joe to Grandma searching for the person who could take all the pain away. Whenever someone new came to visit he would go to them to see if they had the magic touch. He is doing much better today. Now we just have to deal with the arm restraints which of course he hates. He needs constant supervision so that he doesn't touch his face. His circumcision has healed nicely so that relieved alot of his discomfort.

I am so thankful to have my mother here. She has taken the night shift since the surgery and I am able to get plenty of sleep. She also has kept the laundry and house work up and I will always be forever greatful for that. Chase has been in vacation bible school all week. He loves his brothers new smile and spends lots of time helping him "try it out". Believe it or not Brock is already smiling! What a trooper he is. He is now starting to sleep better too!

Thank you all for your kind emails, phone calls and flowers. I can't tell you how much you all mean to us.


Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Going to the hospital

It is with a very sad and heavy heart that I take Brock to the hospital today for yet another procedure. This time they will be erasing what I have grown to love the most...his smile. His smile will no longer be so wide that it encompasses the room mearly by its size. What at birth I wanted fixed so badly is now what I secretly long to keep. I have photographed it endlessly from every angle and that should bring me peace but it will not be the same in person. It was what was created by God through my body and no matter how hard I wish it would not have happened I do not want it taken away. I am so blessed to have Brock because he has taught me that a mothers love is stronger than any love in the world. I am thankful that I am lucky enough to experience this pain first hand. So off I go to rip Brock from a peaceful sleep much like he was riped from from my womb. For everyone that knows Brock I am sure you too will be feeling my pain. He is so strong..beautiful...sweet....MINE.

Love Tarah

"To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul; in you I trust, O my God." (Psalm 25:1a)

Friday, July 08, 2005

Cuddle time! Posted by Picasa

First fourth of July. Posted by Picasa

Brocks getting ready to start crawling. These were taken 7/3/05 Posted by Picasa

I love to watch the way Brock looks at Chase. It is amasing to watch them interact together. Posted by Picasa

Anyone want to come over for dinner? Its always a mess to feed Brock. The food has to be pretty thick to avoid going up the sinus. We have learned that if he is going to sneeze DUCK! He is eating us out of the house.  Posted by Picasa

I love this picture. If you notice the block (not planned this way) is B for Brock. Posted by Picasa

All clean and ready for bed. Posted by Picasa

Brocks favorite time of day....mine too...almost nigh-night! Posted by Picasa

Brock gets a high chair! Posted by Picasa

This might be the best day of his life. Posted by Picasa

Chase in the fire truck. Posted by Picasa

Chase graduates the class clown of course! Posted by Picasa

Brocks last day in a little guys carseat. Chase was in his until he was year. Brocks moved on at 6 months. Posted by Picasa

Brocks first time Camping. Posted by Picasa

We are very lucky and thankful that Brock has been able to eat so well. Chase can no longer hold Brock he is so big. He weights 21 lbs. now and still going. Wow that day at the park really wiped them out! Posted by Picasa

Brock now sucks his thumb. I love this picture. It is my favorite! Posted by Picasa

Whats going on here? Posted by Picasa

I love moments like this. I hope they always get along thid good... Posted by Picasa

got to love the arm restraints. He was one day post opp here. The swelling had really kicked in and he was still zonked out from all the drugs. Posted by Picasa